Monday, August 25, 2008
Why must u always think that i'm just some insolent kid who dunno how to think, and now u think i acting like some selfish brat that dun bother bout anything in the family. maybe it's right that i don't spend much time at home. but does that means that i'm not matured enough to think? it's right that i keep lots of things to myself. it's because i don't want u to worry too much about me and when i talk to u abt stuff, u jus think that i still a kid that don't understand a thing. i know that last time i will always be hot-tempered at home because of what happen in sch or stuffs. n i regretted it so now i'm still learning how to draw a line between what happens outside n at home. even if it's not really that good. can't u even see the little effort i'm putting in. even for O's i tried my best. n i'm really surprise for the result that i get, but the way u wanted to congrats me seems more like going to demoralised me. saying that i did not put in any effort at all. of course i will get pissed, but i understand that u care for me, n u just do not know how to phrase things sometimes. and i was pissed as when i was upset over why i'm not able to get better results for some subject eventhough i put in that amount of effort, u just pinned me down with those words. sometimes i really dunno whether it's good for me to think maturely this young or is it wrong for me to understand things sometimes. just tell me what u wan. pls. i dun wish to bother so much anymore. may it be that i'm selfish or what-so-ever. i really want a break. ):
Nothing to gain/everything to fear; 10:43 PM
