Thursday, January 31, 2008
In front of all,
she's smiling and laughing.
But deep in her heart,
she's crying and yearning for the guy she truly love.
Nothing to gain/everything to fear; 8:31 PM
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
The best way to forget about pain is not to suffer from physical pain.
Cuts, thoughts of suicide, abuse, not eating and causing your body system to fall.
It's not the way to make urself forget about all the pain u are going through.
It's just leaving u a scar that makes u feel more miserable.
The only way to forget about pain is to have a strong/weak mind.
Train urself to be able to accept any humiliation for that's the worst thing u are able to get in live.
The most embarrassed moment and stuff like that are there to make u scare.
If u are able to overcome it, where will u still be afraid of pain.
Physical pains are just nothing.
Mental and psychology games are the
best best way to suffer pain.
And when u get use to all the pain, u will not even feel pain anymore.
That's what i believe..
When 2 negative matters meet up, it will only sum up to one positive thing.
Keep everything to urself and always change what u are talking about.
And no one will be able to understand u.
Once someone know everything about u,
It's like almost the end of u.
Dun think i really understand what im typing abt lar..
Seems n sounds so stupid.. -.-''
and now there seems to be more kuku in our sch n JP..
some also upgrade to kuku nabei liao..
wat's more?
the last thing that i have not said yet..
sounds a bit better but if i think about it, it just sounds so discriminating lar.. -.-''
Nothing to gain/everything to fear; 9:51 PM
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Hmm..
today woke up chat on phone awhile and went back to sleep..
suddenly my bro n mom came back..
so went to have brunch..
and slack about doing nothing..
suddenly went to do some housework..
since my mother n bro sick..
and was really sian at home lar..
everyday watch show slp eat play..
then wanted to go back to sleep after cleaning the fan in the living room..
and Jia Hao called..
can't reject him cause long time nvr pei him go out le..
some more he booking in today again..
so went to JP watch Body #19 with him..
really gay lar.. only 2 of us..
then the rest not free..
and the cinema was like quite empty..
the show was scary and complicated..
Catch it bah..
but sad for those under 16.. ;p
think tt's all for wat happen today..
off to edit my blog a little le bah..
And think i know who started the Wakakakaz thing le..
must be learn from Bleach de anime bah..
from that con-man bluffing the 4 kids..
Nothing to gain/everything to fear; 9:35 PM
oh well..
dun really noe wat to post abt today..
but learned that "
wakakaz" is the new trend..
dunno which kuku started it..
but yah dajie say new trend so mus start learning bah all =D
Wahakahaz..
LMAO.. -.-''
A sense of danger causes humans to evolve rapidly...
Nothing to gain/everything to fear; 1:11 AM
Sunday, January 27, 2008
Awww...
coco now botak head le lar =(
and the reason for shaving botak is because new yr the time wan come over to my house..
nd fur short short then can pass lmao...
Must learn not to prank people at night liao..
or else they will really prank u back..
but was sleeping like a pig lar..
so did not hear my phone ringing..
pai seh..
then finally added a old friend lar..
no idea how he find my friendster but yah added him up..
his getting more handsome lar..
then tell me no stead..
nvr thought of finding one when in sec sch..
or rather none was swee enough for him lmao..
then now he studing baleatier ITE..
and he complain again that there isn't any chio bu..
then still intro me 2..
and tell me to go to Simei ITE to look for chio bu if needed..
no idea what's he's learning in sch lar..
still ask me teach him how to chio girl..
like so WTF sia this guy..
LMAO..
hope he do well in his studies bah..
and those things that are spreading around,
i never think that's true..
for there are some things that you guys don't know..
so it's better to have a stop to everything..
she's not what you guys think she is..
i assure you that..
and i'm not a good person as u think i am..
u still dunno anything abt me yet =p
Mwahahahaz..
Just a joke =D
Nothing to gain/everything to fear; 11:42 PM
Friday, January 25, 2008
Nothing much happen between my mother and me now ^^
guess the power of practicing forgive, forget and forever is really strong..
and this is taught by someone lar..
do not even have her contact number now..
only know of people with same name as her -.-''
and the person damn easy emo de lar..
wahlao eh..
morning also got a call from niang zhi..
asking her regarding MI..
and think it's quite appealing leh..
but found out that the diploma courses is only for students with good results over there..
sian zhi buan..
then chat dao funny de things lar..
shoot by her like what like that..
then suddenly ask that kind of kuku question..
lucky i know what she thinking of..
if not really don't dare even talk to her liao..
this kind of people very fierce to handle..
must not mao fan..
and now i'm asked to do something for her lar..
sure will not be a good thing de lar..
i'm gonna be such a jackass.. = O
Nothing to gain/everything to fear; 9:01 PM
Shall not elaborate on the results that i get..
cause it's really sad for me..
i can't get into the veterinarian course that i wish to enter in TP..
and not even the psychology course..
not meaning that my results are like that and i'm still sad over it..
but it's just not the results that i want..
i really wish to get in but now even if i try to appeal it won't work..
the gap is just too wide..
why didn't i study more last year..
could have done better in my sciences and course work..
regretting over it won't change anything for now..
I'll just carry on with my life and do well in the new course that i gonna be in..
listen to what miss wong say bah..
don't always look at the past for there's always a future ahead of you..
and i'm really sorry for my attitude towards my mother..
so sorry..
i didn't meant to make u cry..
but do u noe how sad is it for me to think that u feel that my results are bad when u say things tt way even though u do not mean it..
Nothing to gain/everything to fear; 12:13 AM
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
Now i understand why he has been holding on hoping that she will get back to him..
Even though she went off with another guy, he ask the other guy to take care of her..
but the two didn't last long, and she went back to him..
He was of course happy over it but now,
She told him she needed time to think over again..
and he gladly waited..
about what will happen next i have no idea...
for there isn't any update on it..
Both have fairly good points, but why is this happening between them?
Hiaz..
really shaggered..
still unable to get an answer that will make me give up..
or either know what she's thinking now and think of what to do..
i dun see any good point in me..
those u listed before is never a fact..
will ask u again after i get my results and posting bah..
see what's my feeling at that time again..
Nothing to gain/everything to fear; 1:42 AM
Sunday, January 20, 2008
It take 10 lies just to cover one lie..
and it sure takes even more lies to cover just the 10..
but when will you ever know that it's a lie..
no one does..
how much do u think u know about me..
I'll say nothing..
for i know nothing about myself anymore..
i know nothing about what i want..
I'm just leaving in the shadows of others waiting for the time to revive as the happy go lucky person that i am before..
one thing i know for sure is that i'm playing along with this game of life..
Nothing to gain/everything to fear; 11:30 PM
Awww..
guess today is just a very bad day for me..
felt really full yesterday even though i only had lunch at bentobox and a slight dinner at 12am -.-''
then woke up today and felt really hungry and weak..
so continue sleeping till all my family members woke up..
and went for brunch..
i can't even finish a bowl of noodle,
feel like puking at the sight of food sia..
then went home to sleep while they went to JP..
it sure felt cold even though the fan nor air-con is on..
not even the windows were open for air ventilation..
think i'm gonna fall sick any time soon bah..
wake up already go check on courses to choose for in Poly..
and realize only RP n NYP was not visited yet..
also giving up on choosing courses from those 2 schools..
then suddenly my mother scold this scold tt..
so give up looking through the courses..
hiaz.. really seem like a useless person that could never get anything right..
not gonna post anymore..
jus gonna change my blog song again bah..
this time not with any lyrics..
Behind Blue Eyes- Limp Bizkit
...it's the way he make her fall in love with him...
Nothing to gain/everything to fear; 9:29 PM
Friday, January 18, 2008
Yawns..
guess it's left wit 3hrs i think..
but it's not really tt impt de lar..
bo kik..
cheryl where will bother bout such stuff..
and i where will so hardworking go do such things..
jus finding out some stuff from tt post ^^
and got nothing..
let me meet my mentor again leh..
let him teach me a few more new stuff..
those tt he taught be4 are of no use now..
jus take smoking to jio gals be the last one bah..
not interested in tt yet..
hope can see him at NP tmr bah..
tt bloody hell fucker tt got a Japanese's gf..
think i'm off to bed le..
even though it's still early..
but it's fucking cold n sian..
Nitez..
Nothing to gain/everything to fear; 9:39 PM
okay..
went out wit class yst..
was fun and enjoyable..
saw lots of wwss-dians at jp lar..
all wearing sch uni sia..
so sad.. hiaz..
also saw zhe lun, he say went to buy something..
then he left..
walk ard jp then went off to westcoast..
tt's when the fun n laughter started..
in bus already made hell lot of noise liao..
then reach westcoast had lunch at Mac..
and gone wild at the park there..
damn lots of fun there..
dunno what to type on tt but find out wat happen till someone post the pics bah ^^
then went to find allan n back with the grp..
now noe y china ppl so ticko liao..
cause got zi long this kind of ppl..
then went to the beach n find cris for dinner..
after dinner chat n chat..
any topic also can link..
and guess he's really given up hope on wwss bah..
more or less i guess..
then went to jp n saw yk n cheryl..
how stupid can i be to promise chery tt i would find a new gf for her see by today..
jus because she dun believe i break up liao..
AAAARRRHHHH...
less than 23hrs left leh..
who can help me by being my gf for 5 mins to entertain her.. XD
dun wanna head her advice n find niang zhi..
will die till cham cham..
pls help ^^
Nothing to gain/everything to fear; 12:49 AM
Thursday, January 17, 2008
Jordin Sparks - Tattoo
Oh oh oh
No matter what you say about love,
I keep coming back for more,
Keep my head in the fire,
Sooner or later I get what I'm asking for
No matter what you say about life
I learn every time I bleed
The truth is a stranger
Soul is in danger
I gotta let my spirit be free
To admit that I'm wrong
And then change my life
Sorry but I have to move on and leave you behind
I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realized nothing is broken
No need to worry about everything I’ve done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back at a new direction
I loved you once, needed protection
You’re still a part of everything I do
You’re on my heart just like a tattoo, just like a tattoo
I'll always have you (I'll always have you)
Sick of playing all of these games
It’s not about taking times
When I looked in the mirror, didn't deliver
It hurt enough to think I could stop
Admit that I'm wrong and then change my mind
Sorry but I've gotta be strong and leave you behind
I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realized nothing is broken
No need to worry about everything I’ve done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back at a new direction
I loved you once needed protection
You’re still a part of everything I do
You’re on my heart just like a tattoo, just like a tattoo
I'll always have you (I'll always have you)
If I live every moment,
It won't change any moment,
It’s still a part of me and you
I will never regret you
Still the memory of you
Marks everything I do.
Oooh
I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realized nothing is broken (yeah)
No need to worry about everything I’ve done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back at a new direction (don’t look back)
I love you once needed protection (no no)
Still a part of everything I do
You'll still in my heart just like a tattoo
Can't waste time so give it a moment (I can’t waste time)
I realized nothing is broken
No need to worry about everything I’ve done (No need to worry)
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back at a new direction (don’t you ever look back)
I love you once and I needed protection
You’re still a part of everything I do
You'll still in my heart just like a tattoo, just like a tattoo
I'll always have you
Nothing to gain/everything to fear; 12:24 AM
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
okay change to this fuk-up song.. ^^
quite cool lolx..
but dun think it's the full song..
can't upload the video..
realize a bit of stuff can't be seen by xmm ;p
Superman - Eminem
[Dina Rea:]
Mmmhh
[Eminem:]
You high baby?
[Dina Rea:]
Yeahh...
[Eminem:]
Yeah?
[Dina Rea:]
hahaha..Talk to me...
[Eminem:]
You want me to tell you somethin?
[Dina Rea:]
Uh huh...
[Eminem:]
I know what you wanna hear...
'Cuz I know you want me baby I think I want you too...
[Dina Rea:]
I think I love you baby...
[Eminem:]
I think I love you too...
I'm here to save you girl,
Come be in shady's world,
I wanna grow together,
Let's let our love unfurl.
You know you want me baby,
You know I want you too,
They call me Superman,
I'm here to rescue you,
I wanna save you girl,
come be in Shady's world...
[Dina Rea:]
oh boy you drive me crazy...
[Eminem:]
Bitch you make me hurl...
[Eminem:]
They call me Superman,
Leap tall hoes in a single bound,
I'm single now,
Got no ring on this finger now,
I'll never let another chick bring me down,
In a relationship, save it bitch, babysit? you make me sick,
Superman aint savin shit, girl you can jump on shady's dick,
Straight from the hip, cut to the chase,
I'll tell a mo'fuckin slut to her face,
Play no games, say no names, ever since I broke up with what's her face,
I'm a different man, kiss my ass, kiss my lips, bitch why ask?
Kiss my dick, hit my cash, i'd rather have you whip my ass,
Don't put out? i'll put you out,
Won't get out? i'll push you out,
Puss blew out, copin shit,
Wouldn't piss on fire to put you out,
Am I too nice? buy you ice,
Bitch if you died, wouldn't buy you life,
What you tryin to be, my new wife?
What you Mariah? fly through twice,
But I do know one thing though,
Bitches they come, they go,
Saturday through sunday monday,
Monday through sunday yo,
Maybe i'll love you one day,
Maybe we'll someday grow,
Till then just sit your drunk ass on that fuckin runway hoe...
[Chorus:]
'Cuz I can't be your superman,
Can't be your superman,
Can't be your superman,
Can't be your superman,
I can't be your superman,
Can't be your superman,
Can't be your superman,
Your superman, your superman...
[Eminem:]
Don't get me wrong,
I love these hoes,
It's no secret,
Everybody knows,
Can't we fuck?
Bitch so what?
That's about as far as your buddy goes,
We'll be friends,
I'll call you again,
I'll chase you around every bar you attend,
Never know what kind of car i'll be in,
[Woman Screaming]
We'll see how much you'll be partying then,
You don't want that,
Neither do I,
I don't wanna flip when I see you with guys,
Too much pride,
Between you and I,
Not a jealous man, but females lie,
But I guess that's just what sluts do,
How could it ever be just us two?
Never loved you enough to trust you,
We just met and I just fucked you,
But I do know one thing though,
Bitches they come they go,
Saturday through Sunday monday,
Monday through Sunday yo,
Maybe I'll love you one day,
Maybe we'll someday grow,
'Till then just sit your drunk ass on that fuckin runway hoe...
[Eminem & Dina Rae Over Chorus 2x]
[Eminem:]
I know you want me baby,
I think I want you too...
[Dina Rea:]
I think I love you baby...
[Eminem:]
I think I love you too,
I'm here to save you girl,
Come be in shady's world,
I wanna grow together,
Lets let our love unfurl,
You know you want me baby,
You know I want you too,
They call me Superman,
I'm here to rescue you,
I wanna save you girl,
Come be in shady's world...
[Dina Rea:]
Oh boy you drive me crazy...
[Eminem:]
Bitch you make me hurl.
[Eminem:]
First thing you said...
[Eminem As Women:]
I'm not phazed,
I hang around big stars all day,
I don't see what the big deal is anyway,
You're just plain ol' Marshall to me...
[Eminem:]
Ooh yeah girl run that game...
[Eminem As Women:]
Haily Jade...I love that name,
Love that tattoo...what's that say?
'rot in pieces' aww that's great...
[Eminem:]
First off you don't know Marshall,
Add also, don't grow partial,
That's ammo for my arsenal,
I'll snap you off that bar stool,
There goes another lawsuit,
Leave handprints all accross you,
Good lordy-wody you must be blown off that water bottle,
You want what you can't have,
Ooh girl that's too damn bad,
Don't touch what you can't grab,
End up with two back hands,
Put Anthrax on a Tampax and slap you till you can't stand,
Girl you just blew your chance,
Don't mean to ruin your plans,
But I do know one thing though,
Bitches they come they go,
Saturday through Sunday Monday,
Monday through Sunday yo,
Maybe I'll love you one day,
Maybe we'll someday grow,
'Till then just sit your drunk ass on that fuckin runway hoe...
[Eminem & Dina Rae Over Chorus 2x]
[Eminem:]
I know you want me baby,
I think I want you too...
[Dina Rea:]
I think I love you baby...
[Eminem:]
I think I love you too,
I'm here to save you girl,
Come be in Shady's world,
I wanna grow together,
Lets let our love unfurl,
You know you want me baby,
You know I want you too,
They call me Superman,
I'm here to rescue you,
I wanna save you girl,
Come be in shady's world...
[Dina Rea:]
Oh boy you drive me crazy...
[Eminem:]
Bitch you make me hurl.
[Chorus 2x B/W Dina Rea Singing]
Nothing to gain/everything to fear; 11:17 PM
Really not sure what the world is changing to..
yst someone say dajie chio bu leh..
then ask y i sec3 the time nvr jio her..
now jio her also can.. -.-''
she's my best pal leh..
jio her for wat..
ltr she whack me all the time nia..
some more only can pour my feeling out to her..
only she noes when i'm sad..
my best bros can only see the happy side of me ^^
and i realize i'm not cut out for the course i want =(
not enough points to go for the course..
and yst rmb i indirectly killed a dog when i was young..
feed it chocolate and still share wit it..
wat a person i am..
might as well go die sia..
hiaz..
change course? maybe bah..
Nothing to gain/everything to fear; 9:07 PM
Sunday, January 13, 2008
yoyo ppl..
today woke up damn early lar..
8plus shaun jiu msg me liao..
say going TP open house..
then quickly went to bath n change n off i went..
forget bring mp3 n stuff..
then receive a msg saying to take my time cause they are not there yet..
Argh.. wasted for not getting my mp3 out..
then met them at JE control station n headed over to tampanies..
think wrong spelling again?
and was like a few idiots 1st time going out..
didn't noe how to walk ard the campus..
so anyhow walk n ended up in the seminar..
really getting ready to go TP..
got 2 courses that i wan ^^
but if go TP tt means WSNP cannot always go back le..
and will try asking to live at Novena..
also not going back to jurong tt often le..
sad-ed..
very tough n troublesome thing to think of sia..
then noe a few ppl..
by the name of Linet, Hannah and pemala i guess?
only noe Linet is the siao zha bo tt help me design the shirt ^^
thx alot..
then hannah is the one tt intro me to the course..
and both intro us to TP student union..
stupid kuku thing.. =x jking jking..
then went off to meet jy,zl n sean at bugis..
they went there to buy something..
and headed to Ang Mo Kio for pool..
cl came after tt and we went for dinner..
went home after tt..
and i'm damn beat..
think going slp in a moment bah..
and tt's the shirt linet help to draw out..
and i really wore it the whole nite okay..
dun siaosiao..
thought of wat to write but not of whose name to follow on ltr..
hiaz..
Nothing to gain/everything to fear; 12:18 AM
Saturday, January 12, 2008
Yawns..
really tired at the moment..
jus back from sengbawang..
guess it's the wrong spelling but it's Shao Li's birthday..
so went there late cause Jared went home n came out late..
reach already still went to the wrong place..
hiayo..
then go there cut cake went to the park n headed home -.-''
sad lar..
my mother dun allow me to taunt today..
can only come home n use comp ^^
and i saw Dajie today..
Whee.. thought she work till siao liao..
nvr even come sch wit her "bf" the qiu zhi..
then she tell me the same things again..
think she's right but i'm still not sure if i wan to do things tt way..
might jus giv it a try..
or else be like her le ^^
Finally all the CCA fair thing over le..
or else nxt week will be another tiring week for me..
Committed? Who noes?
Just gonna do my job and see wat's in place next..
Nothing to gain/everything to fear; 1:45 AM
Wednesday, January 9, 2008
Yea yea..
i found the song and even got a video of it ^^
Strike off those parts cause nvr noe if it would happen..
if it would of course im happy bout it ;p
and the green part would be wat i do when i really given up hope..
and this is the song..
When I'm Gone - Simple Plan
We're doing it.
I look around me,
But all I seem to see,
Is people going no where,
Expecting sympathy.
It's like we're going through the motions,
Of a scripted destiny.
Tell me where's our inspiration,
If life wont wait,
I guess it's up to me.
Woah!
No, we're not gonna wait another moment in this town.
Woah!
And we wont come back your world is calling out.
Woah!
We'll leave the past in the past,
Gonna find the future.
If misery loves company well,
So long, you'll miss me when I'm gone.
Ooh, ooh, ooh.
You're gonna miss me when I'm gone.
Ooh, ooh, ooh.
Procrastination, running circles in my head.
While you sit there contemplating,
You wound up left for dead (left for dead)
Life is what happens while you're busy making your excuses.
Another day, another casualty.
And that wont happen to me.
Woah!
No, we're not gonna wait another moment in this town.
Woah!
And we wont come back your world is calling out.
Woah!
We'll leave the past in the past,
Gonna find the future.
If misery loves company well,
So long, you'll miss me when I'm gone.
Ooh, ooh, ooh.
You're gonna miss me when I'm gone.
Ooh, ooh, ooh.
You're gonna miss me when I'm gone.
When I'm gone-
Let's go!
Wont look back,
When I say goodbye.
I'm gonna leave this a hole behind me,
Gonna take what's mine tonight.
Because every day, becomes a wasted chance.
You're gonna wake up feeling sorry,
Because life wont wait,
I guess it's up to you.
Woah!
No, we're not gonna wait another moment in this town.
Woah!
And we wont come back your world is calling out.
Woah!
We'll leave the past in the past,
Gonna find the future.
If misery loves company well,
So long, you'll miss me when I'm gone.
Ooh, ooh, ooh.
You're gonna miss me when I'm gone.
Ooh, ooh, ooh.
You're gonna miss me when I'm gone.
Ooh, ooh, ooh.
You're gonna miss me when I'm gone.
Ooh, ooh, ooh.
You're gonna miss me when I'm gone.
Nothing to gain/everything to fear; 12:03 AM
Tuesday, January 8, 2008
Whee..
today woke up early to send wake up msg..
then wanted to slp but got hungry and ate cereal wit vitasoy milk..
WTH..
whole morning got diarrhoea..
sian tiao..
then went out to meet almost the whole of sec4G'07 guys for lan..
Had a game wit them then receive call from leonard to go back sch help tie structure..
sad-ed..
think nxt time then gather again to play..
but this fri think also gathering to celebrate shao li's birthday after CCA fair.. ^^
tie structure halfway nearly whack a malay guys by the head..
stupidly come ask me this spa quite heavy hor..
wat if i hit u wit it..
i straight away pull from him ask wan try it on urs..
then he walk away..
stupid idiot wan act big nia..
then went to meet sean n zhe lun to slack slack ard at pearl's delight..
then went home to have dinner..
wanted to go gym wit leonard n zm after dinner..
but parents say cannot..
sian tio..
then they went jp..
nw nothing do so blogging..
dun think im gonna make another step till i find that kuku song..
can't think of the title..
only rmb listening to it when talking abt coco to yt..
LMAO..
wan to see wat's abt the lyrics..
and mus listen to dajie say de things..
if not end up like in a game..
Nothing to gain/everything to fear; 8:43 PM
Monday, January 7, 2008
okay changing blog song again..
but dun think this song de lyrics is suitable for wat's happening now..
only think this song is abit nice..
Potential Break Up Song by Aly & AJ
It took too long
It took too long
It took to long for you to call back
And normally I would just forget that
Except for the fact it was my birthday
My stupid birthday
I played along
I played along
I played along it rolled right off my back
Obviously my armor was cracked
What kind of boyfriend would forget that?
Who would forget that?
The type of guy who doesn’t see
What he has until she leaves
Don’t let me go
Cuz without me, you know you’re lost
Wise up now or pay the cost
So you will know
You’re not livin’ till you’re livin’
Livin’ with me
You’re not winnin’ till you’re winnin’
Winnin’ me
You’re not gettin’ till you’re gettin’
Gettin’ to me
You’re not livin’ till you’re livin’
Livin’ for me
This is the potential breakup song
Our album needs just one
Oh baby please
Please tell me
We got along
We got along
We got along until you did that
Now all I want is just my stuff back
Do you get that?
Let me repeat that
I want my stuff back
You can send it in a box
I don’t care just drop it off
I won’t be home
Cuz without me, you know you’re lost
Minus you I’m better off
So you will know
You’re not livin’ till you’re livin’
Livin’ with me
You’re not winnin’ till you’re winnin’
Winnin’ me
You’re not gettin’ till you’re gettin’
Gettin’ to me
You’re not livin’ till you’re livin’
Livin’ for me
You can try, you can try
You know I know it’d be a lie
Without me you’re gonna cry
So you better think clearly, clearly
Before you nearly, nearly
Mess up the situation that your gonna miss dearly, dearly
C’mon
You’re not livin’ till you’re livin’
Livin’ with me
You’re not winnin’ till you’re winnin’
Winnin’ me
You’re not gettin’ till you’re gettin’
Gettin’ to me
You’re not livin’ till you’re livin’
Livin’ for me
This is the potential breakup song
Our album needs just one
Oh baby please
Please tell me
This is the potential break-up song
Just admit you’re wrong
Which will it be?
Which will it be?
Nothing to gain/everything to fear; 1:43 AM
Hmm...
how am i suppose to type this kuku post out..
seems very weird to type the normal way..
jus feel like blabbering out watever im thinking straight and not edit it..
and here goes i guess..
I have nvr complain bout waking up early..
jus to call u up n going to find u..
i jus think doing tt is cool n sweet..
i dun think it's tiring..
even though it might be after a long while..
but i thought tt would be the only chance i would be able to see u almost everyday..
if im really tired at least i would tell u the day be4 de..
being wit u i also can concentrate on the other stuff tt im doing..
if it will.. then i am sure a failure..
after living for so long i still can't work and have fun at the same time..
and i nvr thought that u were stupid useless ugly and so on...
i jus think tt u are urself..
and tt's wat i like abt u..
pretty and smart girls are not for me..
they will nvr be..
cause they will nvr be attracted by me..
for i'm not any good looking guys..
nor am i smart..
and it would much difficult for me to communicate wit them..
at least u are someone tt is very cheerful..
it's sure better to chat wit u and be wit u..
abt the admirer thing..
i dun suppose there is..
all tt i found out last yr have their own new target already..
then when im wit u sure there won't be more de..
who would secretly like someone tt is already in a relationship..
maybe some..
but sure not on me..
y didn't u tell me tt u were thinking so much when we are together..
all this prob sure can be solve..
i keep thinking of wat's the prob tt happen..
and only realize it when u post it out..
hiaz..
or maybe jus tt ur feelings have faded and tt's y all this have to happen..
pls tell me whether we still have a chance to be together..
if no, i would jus totally give up..
maybe, i would sure wait for the day to come ^^
but if the answer is dunno.. then hiaz..
dunno wat to do le...
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okay im done wit the post..
dun think tt's anything special..
wah damn tired..
didn't noe i took almost 4hrs to type all of these out from 10pm.. LMAO
was reflecting on wat i've done wrong and wat happen..
guess...
nvm not going continue anymore..
jus gonna wait for a reply..
Nothing to gain/everything to fear; 1:29 AM
Sunday, January 6, 2008
Yoyo peepx..
Dun keep ask me cheer up leh..
Im always feeling happy =D
no worries..
trust me ^^
we are all people of the 21st century..
mus be able to get over things de..
if not how to move on wit life..
and won't use suicide as the solution to problems..
abt the hongster thing..
i think also dun wan liao..
wan change to saddist XD
2yrs ago a slacker..
2yrs ltr a saddist..
nw someone who is slightly sad but going to be alright soon ^^
All start wit "S"..
cool..
can be superman =x
Hmm...
but saddist also a bit similar to hongster leh..
cause saddist find joy only in others sadness..
and hongsters are the ones that will create sadness in girls..
so how am i different.. =p
jking jking..
make girl sad till like tt not my style of doing things.. ^^
Oh yeah..
think i will post the kukuneknek thing tmr or wat..
today de post getting long liao..
byez..
Nothing to gain/everything to fear; 7:59 PM
Saturday, January 5, 2008
Bloody Valentine - Good Charlotte
Oh, my love, please don't cry
I'll wash my bloody hands and we'll start a new life
I ripped out his throat
And called you on the telephone to take off my disguise
Just in time to hear you cry
When you mourn the death of your bloody valentine
The night he died
You mourned the death of your bloody valentine
One last time
Singing...
Oh my love please don't cry I'll wash my bloody hands
And we'll start a new life
I don't know much at all, I don't know wrong from right
All I know is that I love you tonight
There was...
Police and flashing lights
The rain came down so hard that night and the
Headlines read "a lover died"
No tell-tale heart was left to find
When you mourn the death of your bloody valentine
The night he died
You mourned the death of your bloody valentine
One last time
Singing...
Oh my love please don't cry I'll wash my bloody hands
And we'll start a new life
I don't know much at all, I don't know wrong from right
All I know is that I love you tonight
Tonight...
He dropped you off I followed him home
Then I stood outside his bedroom window
Standing over him he begged me not to do
What I knew I had to do 'cause I'm so in love with you
Oh my love please don't cry I'll wash my bloody hands
And we'll start a new life
I don't know much at all, I don't know wrong from right
All I know is that I love you tonight
Tonight...
Nothing to gain/everything to fear; 10:35 PM
oh and this song for u ^^
Love it when you call-The Feeling
I found a switch
Turned it on
Hit the ditch
And carried on
I was so near
Now you're so far
Are you quite sure
Just who you are
O IIIII
O you could chose a friend but you don't seem to have the time
O IIIII
I wonder if you ever get to say what's on your mind
O take a little time, take a little time
I love it when you call
I love it when you call
I love it when you call
But you never call at all
So what's the complication it's only conversation
I love it when you call
But you never call at all
Remember me, I used to be the best time buddy
Who you couldn't wait to see
But getting old, it takes its toll
And hearts getting broken lead to people growing old
O IIIIII
Im flipping with a coin that's got a tail on either side
O IIIIII
Im gonna be the one who makes you stop and realise
You could have it all
We should have it all
I love it when you call
I love it when you call
I love it when you call
But you never call at all
So what's the complication it's only conversation
I love it when you call
But you never call at all
Yea I wonder where you been
Yea I wonder who you seen
And I hope you find your train
When you do a living and hope it's all it seems
I love it when you call
I love it when you call
I love it when you call
But you never call at all
So what's the complication it's only conversation
I love it when you call
But you never call at all
Nothing to gain/everything to fear; 2:53 AM
okay guess this pic is no longer needed anymore ^^
really thank you for allowing me to noe tt true love doesn't exist..
jus when i'm getting serious on this relationship something like tt happen..
or well..
it's sure fun being wit u..
but guess it's all over..
no prob..
take care of urself =D
will try getting back wit u..
or either way go find someone new..
and not getting into a real relationship le..
gonna be a hongster from now on ^^
Nothing to gain/everything to fear; 2:29 AM
Wednesday, January 2, 2008
Fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck..
really dunno wat happen today..
morning was alright..
den afternoon had np..
didn't noe y keep on press wrong button..
can't blame..
dunno wat to do lolx..
then ltr dar tio gan..
also can't blame zm to scold her..
she also in some fault..
then dunno wat happen..
then suddenly receive a msg from someone..
didn't realize tt i did not settle something properly last yr..
nw make tt person get the wrong impression..
really felt guilty towards her..
y didn't i tell her tt my feeling towards her had faded last yr..
hiaz..
this kind of prob can't say no kik..
KNN..
nd to be serious..
then nw this kind of prob..
luckily she given up le..
but felt so sry..
really sry..
Phew..
feel much better le..
im off ^^
y am i such a fuk up person..
Nothing to gain/everything to fear; 9:28 PM
Tuesday, January 1, 2008
A new year..
a new life..
a new goal..
a new freedom life..
cause dar yst wan gao wai yu..
LMAO..
no choice..
cant force her..
at most rest of this yr alone nia mah ^^
No kik..
Wahahaz...
nvm think im going to slp again bah..
wan take medicine liao..
Byez..
Nothing to gain/everything to fear; 3:15 PM
wheeee...
Happy New Year peepx...
yst went to sch for np meeting..
was late..
then went off to meet dar n the rest..
then went to sean's house and have fun..
then went to sheng shong to buy some stuff..
and prepare for the bbq..
started fire and stuff..
eat play and chat.. ^^
then she went home liao..
me zoe n jy went over to jy house
then walk to jp and headed to vivo..
met up wit pris yiyuan n jiahui..
really thx for the belt whorx ^^
headed to raffles after tt..
then see the fireworks and call dar up ;p
veryfun whorx..
then went home liao..
saw faizal also..
wah so lucky to see him after he left from the meeting..
then went home wit him..
bath..
nw online n chatting wit her ^^
okay i off le
Nothing to gain/everything to fear; 3:35 AM
